3 posts tagged “life”

With the changing seasons, decorating for spring, I feel its time to make some life changes too. This sounds so cliche and corny, but some things are getting out of control and I really need to grow up and accept that I CAN make the changes. I don't do it because I am lazy and this isn't good enough! Sit back and smelling the roses too long will cause you to fall asleep in a bed of thorns. Am I right?!

My sister is in London and I couldn't be more happier. Things in my life are so turbulant in terms of relationship and job, that I need some sort of release from the overwhelming pressure. There is a girl at work that laughs at me when I say I have problems, she will look at me and say, 'Problems, Nicola, What 'problems'? This girl will come in to work for 4 hours and complain she has to stand on her feet, after I have been there for 8 hours on my feet. No retaliation from me, I can assure you! I am far too old to be engaging in 'drama' ..

Wicked tomorrow night. I am excited :D. Will fill you in later :)

.. I was diagnosed with PD (panic disorder) and clinical depression a long time a go and was told that its something I will need to deal with for the rest of my life. The on going battle is very difficult when playing out life situations as it can be extremely difficult for the one you love to watch you painfully go through the motions of daily life. I struggle a lot to even get out of bed, eat, go to work .. Sometimes you really don't want to. Often you just want to sit and cry because you feel so physically numb that even breathing can be too much to bear.

There are people with terminal illness, which should make me feel ashamed to be feeling this way ... Should I really be feeling this sad?