14 posts tagged “ramble”

I am being a rebel and staying up way past my bedtime. I AM that hardcore. 

Ordered 2 T's from truffleshuffle.com. One is a Johnny Depp as "Cry Baby" (as seen on Amy Winehouse. Though I hope I don't feel compelled to smoke crack after wearing it) and the other is a Beatles "Let it be". I did have my eye on a My Little Pony "Princess Sparkles" but it didn't scream bad ass to me. I did say I was buying cheap T's, but these were too pretty to pass up :).

Work tomorrow ---> :|

Ideas and thoughts are being put in to action for my new website. I miss the freedom of having my own designed webpage out there for the world to see. Because I got the Mac I didn't know what my options were in regards to text editors, graphic editors, but now I have found two reliable sources which means I can get my design on. Things are slowly being pieced together and its good :).

I've had an idea .. Yeah, dangerous, I know. Usually when I have an ephihany of any kind disaster normally follows. I can't tell you what this wonderous idea is as I don't want to jinx anything. So I am shushing till I know it's going to happen. I am one of those annoying people that start something then lose interest 5 seconds later .. "OOOH lets do this .. O--oh *yawn* yay". Its part and parcel of being me I guess and I just roll with that.

I come from a highly creative family. One side was talented art wise and was famed for it, having all his cartoons on walls of bars in the area I grew up in, becoming a local celebrity in his own right (Fathers side). The other was in music and one family member conducted a band in the Royal Albert Hall in London and was featured in a book (Mothers side). So I have a creative streak genetically infused in me that screams to be let out, but my A.D.D stifles that soon after and I never fulfill any sort of potential. I'm working on it though .. Always working on it.

This idea just needs the right amount of TLC, nurturing and a dash of life whispered in to it to make it a reality. Can I handle it? In short - I may get dragged under a bus tomorrow not accomplishing ANYTHING if I don't try. Anything is possible. Possibilities are endless, if you want them bad enough.

I feel the need to tell you that Bacardi and coke (a-cola) is best served with plenty of ice and 3 lemon slices. I also feel the need to tell you that I have drank most of the bacardi in the space of  3 hours and 4 episodes of the Gilmore girls, later. God, I am turning in to my Mother ..

I drank most of the Rum .. *pouts* .. I'm a rum whore.

Sadly I've just realised that I am writing the same shit over and over. It makes me angry to think that this is ALL I am capable of, is this what my life has come to? I hate repetitive bollocks and now its my life.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/nicsrandomness/ .. I gave the wrong URL to my flickr page dedicated to my iPhone photos. I just want to say how much I love my iPhone, its sad. Though knowing me I am pretty sure I'll tire of it soon enough! Next is the Macbook Air .. I wish I was a millionaire because I seriously need a new computer. My 3 year old Dell is on her last legs bless 'er.

I am reading far too much Perez Hilton. I don't agree with all he says, but admire the fact he made his money out of something as simple as a blog. It takes some level of intelligence, you have to agree, no? This whole Britney drama has me glued to my computer screen daily. And no, I DO have a life, just tittilated by mister Perez's gossip tidbits. All us ladies thrive from small portions of scandel. Its human nature, don't argue my point.

Kalen .. Thank you. Your friends are so lucky to have someone as geniuine, kind and caring as you in their lives. I will definetly take you up on your offer, only my e-mail would be a few hundred pages long ;).

.. I was diagnosed with PD (panic disorder) and clinical depression a long time a go and was told that its something I will need to deal with for the rest of my life. The on going battle is very difficult when playing out life situations as it can be extremely difficult for the one you love to watch you painfully go through the motions of daily life. I struggle a lot to even get out of bed, eat, go to work .. Sometimes you really don't want to. Often you just want to sit and cry because you feel so physically numb that even breathing can be too much to bear.

There are people with terminal illness, which should make me feel ashamed to be feeling this way ... Should I really be feeling this sad?

I am crappy at keeping up with any sort of postings. Sometimes what I have on my mind is far too private to be put down in my blog or I have things to say and just can't be bothered wording them 'blog friendly'. But this year I plan to make it the year of the blog. In my previous post I told you that turning 27 was a milestone in terms of what I ave achieved since moving to London 4 years a go. I think that some of this needs to be documented as its interesting reading back and reviewing your personal growth, plus, I think its exciting that people actually read my shizz. So yeah, today is the start of many regular posts to come ;).

On my break at work I tried a second time to go to the Apollo and find out about getting tickets for 'Wicked'. This time I crossed at the Traffic lights and got across the road much safer, 1,000 times faster. I've finally presuaded Jamie to go!!! We will be doing it at the end of this month *YEE*. In preperation I got the Wicked OST (the broadway version though - Kristen Chenoweth, Idina Menzel ect). Obsessed much? LOL. So I am one step closer to seeing Wicked . I took above pics with my phone which is why so tiny. I stood across the road and people were looking at me as if to say - W-T-F?

Im still feeling under the weather . Gah.

Im all packed and just about ready to go :). NOT looking forward to the journey in the slightest. All my moblog updates shall appear here!! I will be sending images via my sidekick 3 :D. All drunken fun will be posted. teehee. Feel free to drop me an IM on AOL instant messenger - audiori0t . You will help my journey go that little bit faster ;p.

Watch this space ;D

xx

I am so tired :(. I wish you could give me a cuddle and tell me all will be ok.

Did you know I took my exam today? It didn't go too good. Not proud of myself at all, but to be fair wasnt told in much time to do much studying. We shall see the outcome in the next week :|.

I am trying dear vox, to write to you, its hard ... My myspace (http://myspace.com/lenicnic) is nicer. Sorry :(.

Nic. xx